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One Is Enough! {I Know Better Now}

“One is enough!”

That was my answer to the invasive question asked of an immature, 18-year-old, teenage mother, “Do you want anymore?”

“I am never having anymore kids! Ever!”

To me, children were an inconvenience. I was head over heels for my cutie pie of a son, but more kids? Nope. Not for me.

And then life changed. I came to the Lord. I married. Nine months later I found out I was pregnant. I wasn’t ready to sacrifice goals and dreams, yet how can one fight what God has already put into motion?

I was blessed, undeservingly, with a beautiful chunka-wunka of a daughter. All of a sudden I learned my heart was capable of stretching, beyond what I imagined, in order to hold another.

And through the storms of life, on days when I feel like I don’t have the strength to show up, God shows up through these little ones.

DSC_0965Music and worship flow out of my son’s room. Notes push through closed doors. Flowing through the corridors of my home, they finally land gently and soothingly on the stirred waters of my soul. The ‘I am’ is here!

On days when grief consumes me to the point of stagnation, chunka-wunka dances and spins in complete oblivion to my distress. Laughter fills the air, rejoicing occurs in spite of my misery. And though music does not accompany her dance, each spin and each twirl, each hand gracefully lifted up in worship, breaks through the thick and stale atmosphere. The ‘I am’ is here!

I am no longer that naïve and immature 18-year-old girl. I am no longer convinced by society’s flawed argument that children get in the way, that they’re an inconvenience.

I am no longer enticed by ladders beckoning me to climb higher, all the while forgetting those little ones who matter so.

I am no longer deceived into the false accepted wisdom that children pose a threat to my future success.

By God’s grace and love, I’ve shoved through this erroneous thinking, and I’ve found motherhood to be the vehicle God has used to mold me, change me, and prepare me.

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It took a while, but I now understand God’s plans for my life do not exclude my children. Motherhood is the vehicle used to strengthen and increase my faith, perseverance, prayer, faith, joy, wisdom, patience, humility, and love.

It has been the means God has used to strip me of selfishness, pride, arrogance, stubbornness, laziness, procrastination, worry, fear, anxiety, and doubt. (And the stripping continues…)

I am who I am, not in spite of having children, but because of them.

As I endeavor to {Live Life Fully Committed}, I declare that One, Jesus Christ, is enough. Because He is enough, I have the ability to pour out into these precious souls. He strengthens me for the task at hand.

And if it pleases Him, I’ll take another, and another, and another… I know better now!

Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift? the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows
are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents,with your quivers full of children!

Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?
    the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows
    are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents,
    with your quivers full of children!

Psalm 127:3-5, The Message

Today’s Challenge:

  • Have you been deceived by society’s view on children? Have you looked at them as an inconvenience? Have you felt that they are getting in the way of the ‘big’ things God wants to do with you?
  • Read Psalm 127:3-5. Now that you know what God’s word says about children, how does that change your view of your own children?
  • God’s plans for your life include this season of mothering. What needs to change in order to make mothering on purpose a priority?

 


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Comments

  1. Rachel says:

    I used to feel the same way a couple of years back. I thank God for my children because He used them
    to bring me back to him! In May this year it will be 2years that I came back to the Lord. I was dedicating DJ to the Lord at 3rd day (my church) and made a promiss to guide my child in the right direction. This was before the Lord, my pastors and the church congregation. So what was my biggest issue/problem (I thought) is the tool the Lord has use to mold this rough clay.

  2. jessica L says:

    Amen !!!! what a wonderful post . I love it !

  3. Jess G says:

    I absolutely Love this post! What a wonderful reminder of God’s blessings to our lives our children. They are our legacy, they will remind others of who we were in their lives. I always say to my son, I’m so grateful God blessed my life with you and I can’t even imagine what my life would be without you in it.

    Thank you for this reminder to cherish them.

  4. Darlene, this was absoltuely amazing! My children our young adults now, but every day I look at them or hear their voice I know I am who I am because of them. What a blessing your words are. Thank you for sharing!

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